It happens sometimes without warning
In a conversation
A meeting
On a walk through the woods
Suddenly
Inexplicably
I feel it!
That shift
That emotional slip that leaves me
out of balance
Like one who
stepping on ice unknown
must flail
and struggle
just to stay up
My mood drops
and suddenly I am
slipping and slidding on
the uncertain surface of fear, or anger
or worse, despair
And then I know
It is time to listen to myself!
From the day I was born
I have stored in my mind
countless opinion, beliefs
expectations
Countless experieneces
They are all there
good bad and indifferent
and life happens
and the tapes get played
Remember when you failed?
No one has ever really liked you!
You are a bad person
You are not enough
But the problem is I don't even hear my own voice
Those thoughts roar through my head unchecked
and unchallenged
Sometimes it is time to listen to myself!
Hey, what just happened here?
Where did that come from?
What did I just say to myself!?
Sometimes it is time to listen
to notice the layers of painthe hateful self talk
the old stories of abandonment and loss
the rejections and disappointments.
Sometimes it is time to challenge
To breathe deeply
To have compassion
To breathe with compassion
And to say to myself
"I hear your pain
May you be safe
May you be healed
May you be happy
May you be ....
At ease!
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