A Long Night's Journey

night falls

the deep emptiness of the day

is now surpassed

by the dark emptiness of the night

as daylight endured

i could ignore the

abyss within

I could fill the moments.

phone calls, meetings

errands,

the urgency of it all gave me

respite

from thinking and feeling

but in the night

what was

and is

and might be

crashes in

leaving me defenseless

and in the night

as all around me quiets

the turmoil within swells

into a cacophony

of questions and doubts

and so i sink

into restless sleep

it will be

a long night’s journey 

to the dawn