Middle of the night

it is the middle of the night

why am I awake

why 

why

why

what if 

what if 

what if

my mind is very creative

at times I wish 

I could turn my brain

which is a pretty good one mind you

in 

for a new one

and then

I breathe

and breathe again

I breathe in joy

I breathe out peace

I let go of what is past and forgiven

(at least by God if not by people)

I let got of the future

and I accept this moment

this moment

as one 

in which God and I

are

"like this"

bound together

tight

connected by love

and in the end

that is all that matters