Sacred Silence

“I'm smiled out, talked out, quipped out, socialized so far from any being,

I need the weight of mortal silences to get realized back into myself.”

                                            John Ciardi, This Strangest Everything

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Today I feel slow, low, ugly, puffy, drooped, pooped.

Instead of being bright I am dull

Instead of being generous I am selfish

Instead of being thankful I am angry

I am bored an apathetic

Get the idea?

The call it lots of things

Tired

Compassion fatigue

I guess it comes from being an introvert who has two jobs that are all about people

Counseling, and pastoring

What was I thinking?

I am more at home in my study

With my books, the dog

And perhaps a spare cat or two

But it is what it is

So I need time times of mortal silence

Sunrise

Sunset

The quiet enormity of Sacred generosity

Going I find myself coming

and God

too