lost and found

“Most people felt lost after high school. Sometimes I felt like I'd never really been found in the first place.”

                              Lish McBride, Hold Me Closer, Necromancer

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In the dusty dying moments of a life

there are wonderings

an adding up of columns

debits and credits

doing the math

does it add up, this life?

have I made a difference for good,

or have I blundered through life,

like a drunken hit and run driver

doing more harm than good?

have I become what I was meant to be?

who was I meant to be?

do I even know?

what that true self looks like

plan A in the book of life?

have I followed my path

or merely let others determine who I am?

it is all a mystery

and perhaps that is the way it is meant to be

one day

one step at a time

left foot

right foot

left foot

breathe

being nudged by the Sacred

standing in the rain

saying

“here I am

in this moment

doing the best I can,

doing what I care about

not really lost,

just on the way

to somewhere