The gift of failure

“Success is stumbling from failure to failure with no loss of enthusiasm.”

                              Winston S. Churchill

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Ever failed?

I have

More times than I can count

Bad choices have closed doors,

              Blocked paths

                             Left me scarred

But I have been lucky

              Time and time again

I have been able to take lessons learned and skill developed

And forge a new path

From minister,

To working for a non-profit

To a medical school

To a community mental health program

Somehow a door always opened

Some way, there was always something new

Waiting

And now

Although there is no drama

No doors closing

It feels like this path goes nowhere

That I am going no where

Just wandering deeper and deeper into

              Grayness

              Vagueness

              Fatigue

Perhaps there is just not enough in me

At place in the journey

To keep getting up

To keep moving

So I creep along

Trying to avoid another failure

But getting, nowhere

Perhaps now is the time to just stop

At least for a moment

At take some time

For my soul to catch up with my body

To take some time

To find again the passion

To get up

And fail again