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Arthur Darby Nock

Earth's crammed with heaven,
And every common bush afire with God;
And only he who sees takes off his shoes;
The rest sit round it and pluck blackberries.

Elizabeth Browning



Thursday, December 4, 2025

The case for compassion

“There are many people who have no idea what they should be living for, or the meaning of their lives, nor have they any guide to tell right from wrong. God looks down at people in that kind of spiritual fog, that spiritual stupidity, and he doesn’t say, “You idiots.” When we look at people who have brought trouble into their lives by their own foolishness, we say things like “Serves them right” or we mock them on social media: “What kind of imbecile says something like this?” When we see people of the other political party defeated, we just gloat. This is all a way of detaching ourselves from them. We distance ourselves from them partly out of pride and partly because we don’t want their unhappiness to be ours. God doesn’t do that. Real compassion, the voluntary attachment of our heart to others, means the sadness of their condition makes us sad; it affects us. That is deeply uncomfortable, but it is the character of compassion.”

          Timothy Keller

 

(Note: Keller is a mixed bag for me.  He believed, and said, stuff I didn’t agree with.  And stuff I agreed with.  This, in his book on Jonah, seems helpful to me.  And it has profound implications in terms of what is happening right now).

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I see them

With their hats and t-shirts

The harbingers of hate

 

I watch as thugs

hiding behind military gear

guns

and masks

prowl the streets seeking to intimidate and harm

 

I hear a president (small P)

Call a woman reporter a pig

And order her to be silent

 

He likes women who are silent

And, apparently,

Compliant

 

And I hear God calling me to reach out to them

To seek to get through the veneer of hate

And wake them up

To the way of Jesus

The way of compassion, forgiveness, welcome, and generosity

 

And I don’t want to do it

 

I would rather turn my back on them

And leave them to face the consequences of their

Blind loyalty, cruelty, and hate

 

I would rather hide in the belly

Of my own self-righteousness

And my own version of arrogance

Then try to love them

 

But every time I try to

Reject and neglect

A person I have judged as hopeless

Does something kind for a neighbor

 

Every time I try to relegate them

To a spiritual trashcan

I see them with their family

And see the love exchanged

 

And it is as if God

Throws up

Poisoned by MY disgust and failure

 

By my inability to see “them”

As sacred children

Lost, perhaps, prodigal

 

Eating the messy slop

They are being fed

But capable of being so much more

 

And I am left on the beach

Naked and ashamed

Knowing

That I must pick myself up

And head off to Ninevah

With a word of hope, peace, joy

And yes!

Love

 

Yes, God asks us to change

to be accountable to love

to love our neighbor

 

but

God never gives up on anyone

Never

Ever

 

And neither can I

 

I will never hate anyone into the Kingdom

But I might draw them in

With compassion, forgiveness, and love

 

With the same love that looked down from the cross

And said

Father, forgive them…

 

 

 

 

 

Wednesday, December 3, 2025

Words

‘Then the thief who was being crucified on the cross next to him said,

‘Jesus, remember me when you come into your kingdom.’ Jesus

replied, ‘Truly I tell you, today you will be with me in Paradise.’

Luke 23. 42-43

 

Dying Jesus,

at the end of yourself

you turned

and spoke words of

togetherness

in the places of the torn.

May we always find

words to

hold, especially in times

 when the world

harms.

Because sometimes

words

can heal.

Amen.

          Pádraig Ó Tuama (Daily Prayer)

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In the silence

Of my heart

Words come

Words of truth that challenge and distress

 

Words that calm and heal

 

There are ugly words, too.

Words of hate and division

That rip and rend

And leave holes in my soul

 

I am white and male

Straight, educated, affluent

 

I get to speak my words

For good or for ill

With my words, I can hurt or heal

Build up or tear down

 

Lord help me choose my words well

And use the carefully

 

And may I always remember

Those who have no voice

 

Monday, November 24, 2025

I refuse

For sin is ultimately a refusal to grow

          Jean Danielou, reflecting on Gregory of Nysa

 

Why am I confident that the people of faith… will keep moving forward?

 

… because of the reality and presence of the creator with creation.  This is God’s world.

… because of Jesus.  We are stuck with Jesus, and he won’t go away… Jesus cannot be contained.  He rises again. He keeps coming back…

We also have the presence of Jesus, the Spirit of Jesus, the Spirit and breath and Wind and Fire of God, alive and active in us and all around us.

          Biran Mclaren, “A New Kind of Christianity”

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God

Creator, Savior, Enable

What must you think of us

 

Are we a blot on your amazing creation?

Do we walk away from your grace?

 

We rebel

We do deplorable things in your name.

 

We pout, we cower

We hide behind lies

We become fearful hoarders

 

And the world disintegrates,

The human family becomes dysfunctional?

 

The evidence is there

A pastor with asphalt burns on his face

The immigrant, terrified in the grasp of brutal creatures in masks

The young girl, curled embryonically on the seat of a private jet

The mother whose EBT card is as  empty as her children’s stomachs

 

Some say it has always been this way!

So?

 

We cannot afford the sin of apathy

We cannot do nothing

So, remind us, Lord, what it means to be blessed

To be a blessing

 

Awaken us, speak to us, teach us

Fill us

Again and again

 

Be relentless,

Come, find us as we hide

Inspire us as we flounder in the ooze and slime of old decay

 

Creator God, Serving God, Present God

Make us new every day

Change us

 

That we might be yeast,

Seeds of change

The light of hope

 

For you are love

And you love us

Always

Amen 

Wednesday, November 19, 2025

Pedaling in reverse

Most of us pedal pretty hard to avoid going in the direction of Jesus’ Beatitudes. We read books that promise to enrich our spirits. We find all kinds of ways to sedate our mournfulness.

          Barbara Brown Taylor

 

We often imagine billionaires as winners in the grand game of life. But what if they are the most starved among us? What if accumulating unimaginable wealth is not a sign of success at all, but a symptom of profound inner emptiness? An addiction that has no endpoint?       

          Christy Lubbers Berghoef

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I am

I admit it

An emotional eater

 

When sadness drains me of joy

When anxiety robs me of peace

When fear hovers over me with dark wings

 

I want to consume

Food yes

But more

 

I want to fill my mind with more information.

I want to fill my time with busyness,

My stomach with food and drink,

My nights with entertainment.

 

I want to fill my emptiness

Sedate my feelings

 

So I strive

I want to be a winner, a success

I want to be respected and valued

I want comfort and wealth, influence and power

 

Maybe if I have enough money and power

I will feel contentment, peace, and even joy

 

Maybe

 

But in my better moments

When I let the wind of the Spirit blow and the fire of God’s love burn

 

I know this is NOT the way taught and lived by Jesus,

Who said, “Watch out! Be on your guard against all kinds of greed; life does not consist in an abundance of possessions.”

 

Who said “The first shall be last and the last first” and taught that true power lies not in domination, but in giving up self-interest to serve others (kenosis)

 

The reality is that I can have it all

And still be empty

Afflicted with an insatiable hunger

That can never, ever be satisfied

 

I know this

I feel this

I live this

 

And I am not alone

I see this hunger that cannot be satisfied everywhere.

 

I look at the addiction to wealth, the desperate need for power.

I watch as beautiful simplicity is torn down

And replaced with gilded, bloated extravagance

 

I watch while my government actually

Appeals a court order to feed the hungry

So that the unsatiable rich might become even richer

 

When people are addicted to wealth and power

There is no endpoint

They are consumed by a need that will eventually devour them

 

When a country is led by such people

This insatiable hunger destroys that nation

As surely as addiction to alcohol, drugs, or sex

Destroys a family

 

Donald Trump, Stephen Miller, Michael Johnson

Bezos, Musk

All of them

Are starving

 

I get it.  Because I sometimes, all too often, I am where they are

 

We cannot survive the terrible choice to try and fill emptiness

With that which does not satisfy (thank you, Isaiah)

 

The outcome of this addiction

Is inequity, oppression, injustice, and cruelty

 

We build banquet halls rather than feed children

We grind justice into the pavement

We kill people for political talking points

 

Khalil Gibran once wrote,

“Pity the nation that is full of beliefs and empty of religion…

 Pity the nation that acclaims the bully as hero, and that deems the glittering conqueror bountiful…

Pity the nation whose statesman is a fox, whose philosopher is a juggler, and whose art is the art of patching and mimicking…

Pity the nation divided into fragments, each fragment deeming itself a nation.”

 

I do not want to be that person

Always hungry, always grasping, always focused on myself

 

I need to be willing to be hungry

 

I believe that God does God’s best work when we are empty

But we must let God bring us what we need

Let the Spirit fill us with all good things

 

When God fills us

We may not end up wealthy, and we may not have earthly power

The world may not even value us

And may see us as fools

 

But when we are filled with Sacred Presence

When we are filled with the overflowing, everflowing love of God

And have some of God’s compassion, kindness, generosity, hope, and love

 

We might well have peace

And be people who can pass that peace along

 

 

 

Friday, November 14, 2025

Heaven begins now

Heaven begins now, for any saints willing to sign up.

                     Barbara Brown Taylor, Always a Guest

 

[The beatitudes] are steps into the kingdom, the stairway to spiritual life…. These are not blessings pronounced upon different kinds of people—the meek, the merciful, the pure in heart, and so on. Rather, they are stages in the experience of only one class of people—those who are entering the kingdom and who at each stage are blessed. The kingdom, of course, is the blessing, and each step into it partakes of its blessedness. This blessedness comes with the taking of the step, and is not postponed as a future reward. Jesus said, “Blessed are…”. 

                     Richard Rohr (Daily Meditations 11.5.205

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Who doesn’t want to be blessed?

Bless me, God, for I have sinned

There will be showers of Blessing

 

Blessed

It is a description of the citizens

Of the Kingdom of God

 

All you have to do

Is open yourself up to Sacred

And there it is

Blessing

 

But what does a blessed soul look like?

Is one blessed if one is rich?  Powerful?

Is blessing having power over others?

Having a wonderful life?

Having amazing and wonderful things?

 

In reality

Jesus gives us a very different picture

Blessed are the poor, the sad,

The hungry, the persecuted

 

Not because they are poor, sad, hungry, or persecuted (Luke’s version)

But because God is with them

Always

 

Not what we expected

To hear that the denizens of heaven

The citizens of God’s Kingdom

Those most surrounded by God’s love

Are the immigrants

The people who worry about losing SNAP

The people who are worried that a retributive leader will persecute them

for not adoring him?

Those whose hearts hurt because of what has happened to them

Or because of what they see happening to others

 

God says, “You are blessed.  You have a special place in my heart

I see what the world is doing to you,

But you are the ones closest to my heart.”

 

I expect the poor, the hungry, the sad, the persecuted

might well respond with

Really?

Don’t talk of love, show me.

 

That, perhaps, is where Matthew comes in.

 

Blessed are those who are humble (poor in spirit)

Who see the pain of the world, and allow their hearts to hurt

Blessed are the meek, who are gentle, patient, and kind

Blessed are those who hunger for justice and act with mercy

 

Blessed are the pure in heart, those who are honest

And those who make peace and are non-violent

Blessed are those who are willing to pay the price

For doing what is right

 

It seems as if it is a progression,

Kind of like the 12 steps

Steps into the kingdom

 

It starts with humility

If we are humble (and it is not all about us)

We can see others, and see their pain

And to those in pain, we can offer kindness and comfort

And for those who are the victims of injustice

The victims of pogroms,

Those stalked, beaten, detained, and deported

We can seek justice

 

We can strive to make sure justice happens.

 

And we can be people who strive to bring all people together

All people

 

We can be people who don’t abandon the immigrant,

The young person who is trans,

The person with a mental illness or addiction,

And yes, the person who has been swallowed up by MAGA

Caught up in an ideology based on domination

 

And we can be people who are willing to stand up for

The poor, the anguished, the hungry

The ones targeted by ICE

 

We can be one way God shows love to them

 

Sometimes this feels vague

(at least it does to me)

But still, I think it is true

 

As we accept Sacred Love

We can offer love

 

As we trust that God stands with us

Even when everything is going wrong

We can stand with others

 

I wish, in my moments of pain

I could feel blessed more often

I wish, as I walk through each day

I could be a blessing more often

 

Because this, I believe, is how the Kingdom of God becomes real

 

As we see that we are blessed

And then become a blessing

 

Wednesday, November 12, 2025

New self on a new path

It’s not to the old self on the old path, which would be non-conversion and non-enlightenment. 

 

It’s not to the old self on a new path, which is where most religion begins and ends. It involves new behavior, new language, and practices that are sincere, but the underlying myth/worldview/motivation and goals are never really changed. My anger, fear, and ego are merely transferred to now defend my idea of God or religion.

 

Jesus is leading us to the new self on a new path, which is the total transformation of consciousness, worldview, motivation, goals, and rewards that characterize one who loves and is loved by God.

                     Richard Rohr

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The time has changed

The sun rises earlier,

Bring light to the day

 

But night falls earlier

Casting us into darkness

And the bitterness of a winter night

 

Time has changed

But something is gained and something is lost

And in the end, nothing has changed

Really

 

When Jesus said, “I make all things new”

He meant it

 

He did not simply call us to

Adopt a new ideology

Or embrace a creed

 

He did not even call us to accept a new set of rules.

 

He did not call us to pack up our baggage

And with a few adjustments to our thinking

And a somewhat childish (not childlike) concept of who he is

And a resolve to be better

And set out on a new path, go a new way

 

Faith is very much about all of that

New thinking, new behaviors

A new way of doing life

 

But to walk this new path

To follow Jesus

Takes something else

 

It takes death

It takes resurrection

 

We can’t follow Jesus.

We can’t walk the new path

Without a new self

 

Without dying to the old

And allowing the power of the Spirit

To make us new

Creations

 

This is not a magical, mystical transformation

Jesus doesn’t wave a wand

And suddenly

Everything is fresh and new

 

Too often, we don’t die to the old

We let the old self cling to us

(or we cling to it)

 

We are called to love God

Totally

All in

 

But we have so many other allegiances.

 

We are told to love everyone

But we don’t

 

We are called to forgive

But resentment and anger cling to our souls

 

We are told to be generous

But we are afraid

To take the risk of generosity

 

We are told to fear not

But we are so afraid

 

The old self stumbles on the new path

And our love of God,

Our desire to be faithful and obedient

 

Become a love of religion

A fixation on the rules

Judgment and exclusion

 

Suddenly, it is not God saving us

It is us saving God

OMG

 

Here is the deepest truth

 

We die to live

We lose everything to gain everything

We empty our hearts and hands

That our hearts and hands might be full

 

Not a new self on an old path

Nor an old self on a new path

 

Only a new self on a new path

will allow us to walk in the footsteps of Jesus.

 

We have to go deep,

Into the terrifying darkness of the soul

So the light can come into the darkness

And we can start

anew

Friday, November 7, 2025

Participatory Eschatology

What is our quest?

 

“…to heal what we have so disastrously broken…

To unify and liberate what we’ve tragically divided and conquered…

To rediscover a larger and more beautiful whole rather than pit part against part in deadly conflict…

 

It is a quest for what is named and sought in every language and culture:

Salaam

Sidi

Mir

Elohe

Ukathala

Wolakota

 

We could call it peace… perhaps ubuntu, a rich word meaning one-anotherness, interconnectedness, join in the common goodness, and profound commitment to the well-being of all [would be better].”  (Brian D. McLaren)

 

Perhaps we are looking for the wrong things

Seeking desperately, like a person addicted

For things that destroy

 

Substances

Power and domination

Wealth

Retribution

 

Maybe we are just not ready.

Somehow

Like babies not ready for solid food

 

It might be that peacemaking

The work of creating Ubuntu

Is simply hard work

And means we must accept

“inconvenient truths”

 

Realities that are harsh

And demand changes we do not want to make

Sacrifices we find painful.

 

Change is difficult

We are such spiritual juveniles

So caught up in immature quests for

Safety and power

Safety and power

 

Think on it

How many of the world’s ills

Come from people with power

Seeking to keep their power and wealth

Safe

Untouched

 

Spiritually trapped

At nascent stages of development

Where promise is

Unfulfilled

We see others as dangers

Obstructions

Terrorists

 

And we destroy Ubuntu

 

We can never stop evolving

Growing

 

As we stumble through

Our pursuits for domination, elimination

Us over you

Us without you

Us taking you over

 

We must move toward a new way

Where we seek

Us in you

You in us

Some of us for all of us

Something good for ALL of us

 

It will be hard to get there

To this Ubuntu zone

And we will have to work

Hard

To stay there

Even for a while

 

But this is the call

The call of Jesus, who says

Follow me

Live like this

 

The journey with Jesus is

uncertain and daring

Always

 

But it is the only way to find

Healing, unity

Liberation

And (paradoxically) community

 

Are we ready?

I hope I am.

I hope you are

It will take all of us

 

(again, thanks to Brian McLaren for his thoughts and words, which I have unabashedly used in this piece)

 

 

 

Sunday, November 2, 2025

Participation eschatology

In participatory eschatology, when we ask, “What does the future hold?” the answer begins, “That depends.  It depends on you and me.  God holds out to us at every moment a brighter future; the issue is whether we are willing to receive it and work with God to help create it.  We are participating in the creation of what the future will be.

          Brian McLaren

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How shall we then live?

As leaders lie

And propaganda floods the media?

As masked thugs stalk the streets

Looking for stereotypes?

 

Where brutality is the modus operandi

And destruction is the coin of the empire?

 

How shall we respond

As the planet burns?

And the existence of precious souls is denied?

As war morphs into war into war?

 

What does the future hold?

What is going to happen to us?

 

Is Jesus going to return

Bloodied and brandishing a sword

To slay the evil doers and save the righteous?

 

Is God going to come and rip creation apart?

Like a painter slashing his or her own painting?

 

Who’s going to make it?

Who’s going to cease to exist?

Who is going to win and who will lose

Who will find their way to “the Father’s House”

And who will be “tormented in the flame?”  (Rich man Dives/)

 

Perhaps it wrong

To think of an avenging God

To think of a Jesus who is almost the antithesis

Of the Jesus walked the earth

 

As Jesus becomes the Christ (Christus Victor)

Does he suddenly become a judger rather than a forgiver?

A hater rather than a lover?

One who deals in death rather than life?

An excluding punisher, who wreaks vengeance and destruction?

 

I don’t think so

I don’t think Jesus can deny himself

 

What I think is that Jesus the Christ,

Who dwells within us as Spirit

Works with us every day

Creating and recreating

 

I think that God became incarnate in this creation

And that God will not abandon it

I believe that Jesus was another incarnation

Creator coming into creation

 

And I believe that the incarnation happens

And happens

And happens again

 

In us, where God becomes real in the person of the Holy Spirit

Through us, as we

Follow

 

As we forgive and give

As we take care of the planet

As we feed the hungry and welcome the stranger

 

And become the voice,

And the hands and feet of Jesus

 

Become Jesus saying

“Suffer the little children”

Which does not mean to make children suffer

But embrace them

 

Become Jesus, healing, reconciling,

Making peace

Creating justice and equity

 

And in doing so, we participate

We determine

The future

 

What does the future hold?

It depends on us

 

Every moment

With every word, every act, we make the world better or worse

We make the future better or worse.

 

We co-create the future with God

We have that power

A power Donald Trump can only dream of and MAGA will never have

 

We are the incarnation of Love

We are the creative power of God enfleshed

And we should live accordingly

 

Thursday, October 30, 2025

The Promise of Love

I once asked a bird,

“How is it that you fly in this gravity

Of darkness?”

 

She responded

 

“Love lifts me”

          Hafiz ala Ladinsky

 

In participatory eschatology we ask, “What does the future hold?”  The answer begins, “That depends.  It depends on you and me.  God holds out to us at every moment a brighter future; the issue is whether we are willing to receive it and work with God to help created it…”

          Brian McLaren, A New Kind of Christianity

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The sky glows

Gold

Above the Seven Devils

 

Light oozing into darkness

Warmth caressing the bitter sky

 

What will this day bring?

As malign forces create a world of chaos

And destruction

Creation in reverse

 

Order to disorder

The Word of God denied

 

Each day holds promise

Or not

 

Our choice

 

Each day holds the possibility

Of a return to The Garden

The chance that we will follow

Cloud and Fire

Love

 

Out of the wasteland of

Fear, and hate, and greed

 

But we can choose to remain

Squatting in the darkness

Mumbling our resentments

Under our breath

 

Exuding the foul odor

Of fear

 

Have we forgotten the power

Of

Love?

 

How love created

All

How love carefully shaped

Each of us

Beautiful just the way we are

 

Have we forgotten

How love brings hope out of despair

Light into the darkness?

 

How it transforms

Lifting us from the rubble

We have created

 

Through our greed and lust

For power

 

Bringing life out of death

So we rise

And

Rise

 

What will we create this day?

This day

That the Lord has made?

 

It depends

 

Sunday, October 19, 2025

Be not afraid

I think we are frightened every

Moment of our lives

Until we

Know

Sacred

          Hafiz ala Ladinsky

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Fear

It crouches waiting

Like my barn cat

Ready

 

To pounce

 

Another headline

More abuses

Children zip tied, standing in their underwear

Shivering in the street

A deluge of lies

 

Malign people

With

Power

 

It springs from seemingly

Nowhere

 

And I am in its jaws

Being torn apart

 

Some mornings I can barely breathe

My stomach roils

My mind is in chaos

As if a hundred pundits

Are screaming at me

 

Be afraid!

Evil is winning, love is losing

The planet is burning

Foul people are abusing the innocent and vulnerable

There is no hope

 

But amidst the chaos

That still, small voice

 

Remember

Remember how I, with a mighty hand

Delivered

Remember how I, by giving myself totally

Delivered

Remember how death was turned to life

Hate to love

Fear to hope

 

Evil has its day

It comes like falling rain

Soaking the earth

Drowning our souls

 

Vicious unfeeling ones

Batter the good

Iniquity piles up

Until we cannot see the good

 

The noise of hate grows until

The cries of the oppressed are no longer heard

 

And yet

We know God

We feel God in our bones

 

And God says

Be not afraid

 

Live

Live life with joy

And hope

With generosity

And kindness

 

I am here

And remember

What I can do

 

With and through

You


Tuesday, October 14, 2025

Points of light

Unfortunately, the clock is ticking, the hours are going by. The past increases, the future recedes. Possibilities decreasing, regrets mounting.

          Haruki Murakami, Dance Dance Dance

 

Every record has been destroyed or falsified, every book rewritten, every picture has been repainted, every statue and street building has been renamed, every date has been altered. And the process is continuing day by day and minute by minute. History has stopped. Nothing exists except an endless present in which the Party is always right.”

          George Orwell, 1984

 

We must not, in trying to think about how we can make a big difference, ignore the small daily differences we can make, which, over time, add up to big differences that we often cannot foresee.

          Marian Wright Edelman

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I had a dream the other night that we were all

a faceless gathered throng

Teetering on a precipice

 

The small sliver of ground on which we huddled

Was slowly crumbling, and we watched it disappear

As moment by moment, the edge

Crept closer and closer

 

We were about to slide

Down a slippery slope

Into a dark void

 

Some in the throng

Stronger, healthier, bigger,

Were shoving those

With less power forwards

Pushing them into

The darkness

 

Thinking they could delay or even avoid

A fatal fall

 

But still the earth beneath our feet

Crumbled

 

So did the dream

But I woke with an empty feeling.

A gnawing pain that tore at my heart

 

It was a feeling I knew.

Helplessness

 

I feel helpless right now.

I wonder if deep down, everyone does

Not just those of us watching the maw of authoritarianism

Consume freedom

But those marching in lockstep

Toward the cliff

 

Fleeing one slippery slope (that they call Wokeness)

Toward another

 

I am not sure we can avoid a plummet

We human creatures

Into the dark depths of fear and hate

The clock is ticking

 

We may well plummet and take all of creation with us.

 

But I have been told

By people who have watched the world collapse before

Not to “tire of doing good”

Not to sit silently, stolidly

A watcher

 

Because even though the world may crumble

Our souls do not need to

There can be chaos without

And a kind of peace within

 

A freedom

To be compassionate and kind

 

I cannot do great things.

But as Mother Teresa reminds us

I can do small things with great love

 

There is an empty shelf at a food bank

That I can fill

There is an LGBTQI+ friend, battered by the regime

That I can welcome and embrace

There are lies I can counter with facts (whether anyone listens or not)

There is hate I can counter with love

As I love my neighbor, even if they fly a Trump flag

And cheer mass deportation

 

This seems to be the question

What can we do now

In this moment?

 

We do not know what is in that abyss

(we can guess)

We do not know if we will survive

We do not know who might survive with us (if we do)

 

But we can carry the light

We can carry love

 

And when all is said and done

We can pick each other up

And slowly climb

Jacob’s ladder

 

Not to heaven

But to a new earth

That is like heaven

 

Am I a fool

To believe that what I do

matters?

 

Probably

But hopefully it is the foolishness of the cross

The foolishness of servanthood and sacrifice

The way

 

For the wisdom of God is greater than human wisdom

And god chose kenosis, emptying

As the Sacred MO (modus operandi)

 

Jesus is proof positive

 

So we must do what we can

To keep the light of love burning

 

We are going to need it

And it will (I do believe), work

 


Sunday, October 12, 2025

Managing the Unsolvable

“Instead of contradicting each other’s views, the task is to supplement each other’s views in order to see the whole picture. Each of them has key pieces to the puzzle. Paradoxically, opposition becomes a resource.”

Barry Johnson

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I am going to hold my breath until I turn blue

Fine

Go ahead

Try

 

I am going to hold fast to my viewpoint and never let it go

Fine

Go ahead

Try

 

If you actually succeed, you will die

If you actually succeed, what you hold dear will die

 

Every inhale must become an exhale.

Every exhale must lead to an inhale.

 

If I am out of oxygen, I need fresh air

Inhale

But soon there is too much carbon monoxide

There is only one solution

Exhale

The carbon monoxide is cleared out

 

But then we are back where we started

Too little oxygen

And so it all starts over again

 

Our solutions are never really solutions.

 

Someone once said that for every complex problem

There is a simple solution

And it’s wrong

 

We cannot have an inhale without an exhale

And we cannot have an exhale without an inhale

 

We cannot have one end of a polarity

Without the other end of that polarity

 

Each end by itself is incomplete.

Each end needs something from the other

 

Needs

Something

From the other

 

We tend to deny this.

We believe that we can live on one end odr the other

In isolation

 

But all we get is staleness.

Narrowness

Incompleteness

 

And we end up gasping,

Failing,

And flailing

 

I dislike the right end of the ideological polarity

I find it seriously bereft of things I think are important

Flexibility

Welcome

Compassion

Servanthood

 

But oddly enough

If I look honestly at the left end of the polarity

If find it seriously bereft of things I think are important

It has its own inflexibility

And sometimes, frankly, it is vague and cloudy

 

It eats its own

 

At the end of the poles are two tight balls

That need new life breathed into them

That need

Something

From the other end of the spectrum

 

Jonathan Rauch talks about

Thin faith

Sharp faith

And thick faith (I prefer fat faith)

 

Thin faith is committed to social change

To justice and peace

But it has left too much behind

God is, perhaps, too vague

(One friend said they envision God kind of like a huge bowl of tapioca pudding)

Values are too conditional, and this faith can be morally derivative rather than

Morally formative

There are too few norms left; they are shattered (yes, the norms have to be the right norms, and some deserve to be shattered)

 

Sharp faith is fear-based

 

And is used as a weapon.

It is enmeshed with nationalism, authoritarianism (at many levels, including family)

And sees itself as the persecuted saviors of the world

The protectors of God (as if)

 

Thick faith embraces the important values

Jesus embraced

Love, welcome, forgiveness

Social justice

Care of the poor

 

It moves forward seeking to solve real problems and create change

But it is clear about its core values

And it understands the need for some structure

some rules

And yes, some compromise

Thick faith accepts that this is about the individual

But not the individual alone (if you were to die tonight...)

 

But instead all people

All creatures

The entire planet

 

It is a faith that moves back and forth

Between the poles

As Jesus moved back and forth between

All the different groups of his time

The outcasts and the establishment

The rich and the poor

The self-righteous and the repentant

The Samaritan and the Jew, and the Roman

 

Touching them all

 

When I encounter that person

Who embraces MAGA,

Who is on the “other” end of the Christian (ideological) spectrum

 

Can I see past the differences?

Can I look for the things I CAN embrace

(there will be things I can’t)

 

Can I think deeply about what I NEED from them?

And not just about how they are “wrong”

 

And oh, how I wish

That instead of seeing themselves as the persecuted righteous

They could see that my version of the faith

Has something, a lot of things, that would help them

Become the people

 

I hopefully believe

They want to be

 

But this is hard

It is difficult for Christian nationalists to understand

That God doesn’t need their protection

And that it is not necessarily just, right, or even Christian

To rewrite secular law

To reshape the secular world

To reflect their religious, but mostly cultural, principles

 

It is hard for social/spiritual liberalism to move away

From its own forms of purism and perfectionism

The left has its own deadly sins

 

Can both sides come to understand that trying to

Dominate or destroy the other side

Will not work?

 

And will weaken

And not strengthen

The presence of Sacred in this world?

 

Inhale, take in the new, the challenging,

Hold.  But not too long

Exhale, let go of those things that do not work

In the formula of the Kingdom

 

Start all over again.

Everyday

Left foot, right foot, left foot,

Breathe

 

 

 

 


Thursday, September 25, 2025

I can do this

Musicians don’t retire; they stop when there’s no more music in them.

                     Louis Armstrong

 

Friend to my son (5) after I got my doctorate.

Friend:  Bryce, what does it feel like to have a dad who is a doctor

Bryce: (thinking of his grandfather, who was a medical doctor)

           Oh, it's OK, but he is not the kind of doctor who does anybody any good.

Me:   …….

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I sit and stare blankly at the screen

my mind is empty

my hands are still

 

I do not know how long I have been sitting this way

My mind,

My heart

My soul

An anaesthetized wound

 

I cannot find the energy to think

To write

To move

To act

 

I am frozen

Brought to a complete stop

By a sense of futility

 

I have always been a striver.

I have always worked hard.

Perhaps too hard

 

And I have always wanted,

In my striving

To make a difference.

 

I know I have “done things”

Sometimes well

Sometimes?

Well….

 

As a pastor, I had churches grow,

As a mental health director, the program flourished

I did cool things

Like redesigning a primary care delivery system in Azerbaijan

 

But right now

When the world is stretched thin by hate and fear

And hopelessness abounds

 

I feel hopeless

A little useless

 

It is one blow after another.

A plethora of little losses

A church member disappears (we cannot afford any losses)

My country (IMHO) is assailed by forces that seek

Control and retribution.  And those forces seem to be winning.

 

Each day

I am diminished

Erased

 

Perhaps ministers don’t retire,

They simply run out of hope, love, peace, and joy

 

Sometimes nothing works

The mind shuts down

The words don’t come

The music dies

 

And you feel like you aren’t the kind of person

Who does anybody any good

 

And yet, and yet

 

For all this, hope remains.

There in the deep-down places

 

because we each have someplace within

in that place which makes us who we are

 

something sacred

something positive

something yes

 

It might not be very big

but as Jesus said,

if it is as big as a mustard seed, it will do

 

and if we can move to that place

live, even for a moment in that space

if we can tap into that love

that forgiveness

that hope

that peace

 

then we can be people who leak life energy

because then we are defined

by that love

by who and what we are for (not against)

 

In a world of “no”

We can live “yes”

 

It is Saturday night.

I will get up tomorrow and preach the good news, yes

And hopefully live it too, yes

And I will travel to a church with big questions

And try to be God’s yes

 

And I will look in the mirror

And say “yes”

I can do this

At least one more day