I am a wanderer. I would say that I am a seeker, but sometimes I have no idea what I might be seeking, so I will stick with wanderer. This blog is more a public journal than anything. I don't claim to have life figured out. I simply stumble from mystery to mystery, and share my reflections along the way. Sometimes I feel burdened, and trudge. Sometimes? Well sometimes grace breaks through, and its time to dance.
Saturday, August 31, 2013
Angels can fly
Angels can fly because they take themselves lightly;
devils fall because of their gravity.
G. K. Chesterton
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Dear Lord
It is another day
Here I am, in the place that I was born
Meeting people who have known me all of my life
Who have know my family
Who knew my parents
There is an odd weight to being here
Did I live up to community expectations?
Has my life honored my parents
My family
Am I the kind of man people expected me to be?
Am I the kind of man my parents would be proud of?
Am I the kind of man I want to be?
Am I the kind of man God wants me to be
No wonder I sometimes have “feet of clay” (Nebuchadnezzar
and I, we are like “this”)
Oh, I have done OK
I am educated
I think I have done some good in this world
But oh those mistakes
Oh those moments of failure
Oh those hidden flaws
That I am all too aware of
But God, I am who I am
And all I can do
Each day
Is abide in you
And just be, in the moment
Be the best person I can be in that moment
I need lord the lightness of the angels
I need to travel light
Realizing that no one, even You
Takes me as seriously
As
I
take
myself
Lord this day, deliver me
From the weight of my own
expectations
Friday, August 30, 2013
Hear My Prayer
Everybody prays whether [you think] of it as praying or
not. The odd silence you fall into when something very beautiful is happening
or something very good or very bad. The ah-h-h-h! that sometimes floats up out
of you as out of a Fourth of July crowd when the sky-rocket bursts over the
water. The stammer of pain at somebody else's pain. The stammer of joy at
somebody else's joy. Whatever words or sounds you use for sighing with over
your own life. These are all prayers in their way. These are all spoken not
just to yourself but to something even more familiar than yourself and even
more strange than the world. Frederick
Buechner
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Lord
Hear my prayer
as I sit here watching the sun crawl across the valley
where I was born
hear my prayer
as I think about friends I have had my whole life
hear my prayer
as I struggle with things done and undone
and sink into my anxiety
hear my prayer
as I look at the latest picture of my granddaughter
hear my prayer
as I sip my first cup of coffee
hear my prayer
Lord
Help me to remember
That all of life becomes a prayer
Thursday, August 29, 2013
Love and Fear
Just finished the book by Rohr. May have to read it again. So full of things to think about. To Ponder.
In this time of anger and hate.
Of war and rumors of war, one thing that Rohr said jumped out at me
yesterday.
“I believe fear is almost always behind hate…. For fear
to survive, it must look like reason, prudence, common-sense, intelligence, the
need for social order, morality, religion, obedience, justice, or even
spirituality. It always works. What better way to veil vengeance than to
call it justice? What better way to
cover greed than to call is responsible stewardship?”
I am going to have to think about this one. The cloaking of fear, and hate, in the
garments of faith. I think I see this
being done. On both ends of the
spiritual spectrum. And it makes me
wonder, how many things do we do out of fear?
How many of our supposedly righteous actions for God, are really about
us? And our stuff?
I have no doubt that as people of faith, we seek to do
good.
But how many times are our responses really about us, and
our fears?
Our greed
Our anger
Our needs?
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Oh Lord
I want to be a person run by faith
Who walks through each day, allowing your presence and
love to flow through me to the world
But Lord, there is that lurking thing called fear
In fear I become entrenched
In fear I do good things in order to feel more secure in
your love
In fear I seek the love and affection of others
In fear I criticize
In fear I hold fast to my possession
But you tell us Lord
That perfect love casts out fear
You are perfect love
And you tell us that you are in us
I know that I will never, perfectly
Be free from fear
Help me to be so full of you
That there is less room for fear
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