All I am now going through
Will make me better or bitter,
Break down or break through
Learning this patience – it takes so much patience
It’s a great education
But why is the tuition so High?
Why God, why?
Brian
McLaren – Naked Spirituality
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I watch as people like "Dr" Oz and RFJ Jr. spew
inaccuracies. While people like
MarkWayne and Mr Mortgage Guy take over critical services they know nothing
about. I listen to tRump and JD and
Rubio lie. I suffer while Huckabee spews
Zionist nonsense. I read the comments of
the MAGA faithful as they talk about "true American culture" (white,
European-based) and about immigrant "trash."
I see America kill kids by shooting missiles at them, or
denying them healthcare and food via funding (USAID). I see us support genocide and apartheid.
I watch us dismantle systems that reveal the truth about
what we are doing to the planet, like the Oceanic Observatories Initiative, to
save 48 million a year, while we spend a billion a day blowing up things in
Iraq (and losing).
I see our current government destroy the agencies that
serve people while bankrolling the agencies that control and abuse people.
I see all the ugliness that permeates our country from
the top (Trump) to the bottom (the MAGA faithful on FB, Threads, and Truth
Social).
And I hate it.
Brian McClaren talks about the fact that sometimes we end
up in what he calls the “season of perplexity.”
Times when there is “no winning.
There are no solutions, answers, or consolations in sight…”
This may be such a time.
The words for perplexity are when, no, and why
When will it end?
No, this is not right!
No. You should not allow this to
happen, O Sacred One. No, this person
should not flourish. What the…..
Sometimes we pray with Meister Eckhart, “God save me from
god.”
Why? I do not
understand. OK, perhaps I understand
that some of these people who are causing this are those who, in order to gain
the world, have lost their souls, who are no longer who they were created to be:
people, children of God, creatures reflecting God’s image. Trump.
JD Vance. Lutnick. Musk. So many of the MAGA leadership. They know what they are doing is wrong. They don’t care (IMHO).
There are those who have just been seduced by power and
wealth and are being used by the evil ones.
Poor MarkWayne. He doesn’t have a
clue (IMHO, it's all just how I see it).
There are those who may actually believe the garbage they
are spewing. RFK Jr., maybe.
There are those who are misled, misinformed, ignorant,
programmed, acculturated. All those
White Nationalist Christians programmed by intense White Nationalist preachers
who have left the Gospel of Jesus far, far behind. Those who watch FOX, and OAN, and all the
others.
There are those who for whatever reason, perhaps fear,
choose to see what they want to see.
That the butt naked Emperor has clothes, that Trump is strong, sane,
mentally with it, effective, and the greatest President ever, like never
before.
All I know is that it sucks the life out of me. The joy out of everything.
I am tired of “no”
I want to get back to “yes”
I want to be in that place where, in the midst of the
fury, doubt and feelings of abandonment, I sense that God is, and reach the
point where even in the midst of it all,
I catch glimpses of sacred, of love
And so this morning, and every morning, I say the words
from a 15th century prayer book.
God be in my head, and in my understanding;
God be in mine eyes, and in my looking;
God be in my mouth, and in my speaking;
God be in my heart, and in my thinking;
God be at mine end, and at my departing.
God, be
