Feeling alone

I lay there in the dark

searching

roaming through the far reaches of my self

for some sense

that I am not alone!

There are times when the solitude

is simply too much

I feel like a house empty

a presence is lacking

love is lacking

I miss that intangible 

link that tangibly exists

with another

through words, and touch

and that heart full sense of other

that fills the souls and blossoms forth

in joy, and hope, and expectation

but sometimes there is nothing but a hurtful emptiness

and I am like something torn

something unbalanced

like an organism gone wrong

alone

and so I search

knowing that to find love I must first find myself

I must meet myself

with compassion

and mourn that howling emptiness

and then embrace

myself and in the warmth

of that embrace

find hope

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 John 14:26-27
 But the Counselor, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you. 27 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.