Primitive religion is not believed, it is danced!

Arthur Darby Nock

Earth's crammed with heaven,
And every common bush afire with God;
And only he who sees takes off his shoes;
The rest sit round it and pluck blackberries.

Elizabeth Browning

Wednesday, September 6, 2023

So I stay

When it comes to being a Christian.  I am out.  I remain committed to Christ as always but not to being ‘Christian’ or to being part of Christianity

          Ann Rice (2010)



Sometimes I wonder why I stay

Here I am!

With my theological degrees.

My ordination vows

My “call”


And sometimes I wonder why I stay

So many are leaving

We hear all about the great resignation

Of pastors leaving for a myriad of reasons

He is tired

She is minimized

They are judged


There is too much secondary trauma

There are too many demands

There is too little support


Sometimes I wonder why I stay

When people I consider friends leave and wander off to another church

When the pews are no longer full

When I wonder if I still have anything to say

When Christianity as a faith system can be so screwed up

And full of hate and exclusion

Rather than love and inclusion


I guess I stay because I believe

In what?

In Jesus.

In his teachings

In his priorities

In his presence


That after all, is what Christianity should be all about

Believing in Jesus

Believing Jesus


I can’t prove God

I can’t prove that Jesus was the incarnation of God


But I can experience God

I can encounter Jesus


Like Paul on the road to Damascus

Blinding light!




What is this?


WHO is this?




And so I stay

Encountering this Jesus

Whom I meet over and over again

And who is always new


And so I stay


That Jesus can remain real




Even within the confines of a church

That acts less like the living body of Christ

Making Love real in this world


And more like a prison

From which Christ must be set free


And so I stay, hoping to join with others

Who move past ritual and creed

To encounter

To communion

To transformation

To service


So I stay

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