Looking for answers

God never answered Job's question as to why it is that bad things happen to good people... But my guess is that it was not an answer that Job was really after, not some sort of theological explanation of the problem of suffering, which would have left him wiser than he was before but suffering still. I believe, instead, that what Job was really after was not God's answer, but God's presence. And of course that was what Job finally found because the way God entered the world without destroying it was to enter Job's heart even as from the depths of his heart Job cried out to him. And that is the way he makes himself present to all of us.

                                                                                Frederick Beuchner

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I am always looking for answers

somehow it seems as if I can just understand what is going on

it will make it more palatable.

But it is only when the search for answers

pulls me into Presence

that things change.

it seems that knowing about God

is not nearly as powerful

as knowing God

much as knowing about

friendship or love

does not warm the heart

or brighten one’s eye

nearly as much as

having a friend

or receiving and giving

love

I will never “get” God

I will never have the answers

I will never understand

God

the world

or even myself

But I can find

peace, hope, and even love

as my questions

my confusion

even my pain

stir my soul and open me up

to the Presence

within