Primitive religion is not believed, it is danced!

Arthur Darby Nock

Earth's crammed with heaven,
And every common bush afire with God;
And only he who sees takes off his shoes;
The rest sit round it and pluck blackberries.

Elizabeth Browning

Sunday, June 9, 2019

the economy of God

“When you have a persistent sense of heartbreak and gutwrench, the physical sensations become intolerable and we will do anything to make those feelings disappear. And that is really the origin of what happens in human pathology. People take drugs to make it disappear, and they cut themselves to make it disappear, and they starve themselves to make it disappear, and they have sex with anyone who comes along to make it disappear and once you have these horrible sensations in your body, you’ll do anything to make it go away.”
 Bessel A. van der Kolk

It is that feeling
Deep down in your gut
That you don’t have this

That sense that everything is slipping through your hands
and crashing to the floor
shattering into a thousand pieces

too many of us feel it
I feel it

it is the queasy feeling in the stomach
the racing head
the hole in the center of one’s soul

it is climate change
and a President abusing his power
and a politicians that put money over people

It is children separated from parents
And dystopian legislation
And mass shootings

It is too many things coming from two many directions
It is too many demands
Too much pain
Too much hoplessness

It is that moment in the middle of the afternoon
When you pace the floor and your stomach hurts
And your heart aches
And your mind races

And you cannot stop
And sit
And do anything
Because it feels like there is nothing you can do

At all
At all

And yet there is something I can do
I can accept my feeling
And notice my thoughts

And then I can let go
Of my need to have things “all tied up”
My need to have the universe “line up” (as if)

And look around me
And see who is there
Within reach

Whose life I can touch with compassion
To whom I can offer something
That will make their life richer and better

I can look around me and see
Who is lonely, or lost?
Who is afraid?
Who is in pain?

And I can reach out with compassion, and generosity

Sometimes service is the best antidote

Ralph Waldo Emerson once said
“The purpose of life is not to be happy. It is to be useful, to be honorable, to be compassionate, to have it make some difference that you have lived and lived well.”

And Jesus said the “greatest among you will be your servant”

Ah, the strange economy of God
Where the last are first
And the poor are blessed
And the givers receive

When Paul says “overcome evil with good”
It is not just an imperative

It is a promise

It is the promise that as we get outside ourselves
And invest our self in actions of love

We will change not only the outer world
But our inner world
For the better.

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