Friday, April 12, 2013
The Spiritual Life
The spiritual life is about becoming more
in your own skin
Parker J Palmer
Anything that removes what grows between our hearts
and the day
there is so much to do!
I have to work on my sermon, and do the bulletin, and call the community
center, and look at the budget, and prepare the worship for
Presbytery, and work up a little meditation time for Presbytery, and check in with
that shut-in couple, and call "the State", and do the implementation plan
and feed the cats and clean the pasture, and deal with that upset
community member and, oops,we never did get that strategic plan done,
and that medical record system is still screwed up and
And I am wondering about how my sister is doing, darn, I forgot to call
and then there is that issue when I got upset with my staff,
downright cranky I was! I wonder if any of my staff even like me? I remember when
I really goofed up with a staff so many years ago. And what about the church people.
I way too busy and I am sure I never give them quite enough time
but even more, perhaps, not quite enough of myself.
At times I wonder about myself. Why is it that I still can't feel good about myself.
Why do I have so much on my mind? Why do I feel so insecure? Why do I
feel like I have to protect myself and can't be as open as I want?
Why am I not the person I want to be?
I wonder what people say about me? I wonder
How long have you been standing there?
You have been waiting
and there was so much between my heart
and I did not