The Spiritual Life

The spiritual life is about becoming more

at home 

in your own skin

                                             Parker J Palmer

Anything that removes what grows between our hearts 

and the day

is spiritual

                                         Mark Nepo 

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Good grief

there is so much to do!

I have to work on my sermon, and do the bulletin, and call the community 

center, and look at the budget, and prepare the worship for

Presbytery, and work up a little meditation time for Presbytery, and check in with

that shut-in couple, and call "the State", and do the implementation plan

and feed the cats and clean the pasture, and deal with that upset

community member and, oops,we never did get that strategic plan done,

and that medical record system is still screwed up and

and 

and

and

and

And I am wondering about how my sister is doing, darn, I forgot to call

and then there is that issue when I got upset with my staff,

downright cranky I was!  I wonder if any of my staff even like me?  I remember when 

I really goofed up with a staff so many years ago.  And what about the church people.

I way too busy and I am sure I never give them quite enough time

but even more, perhaps, not quite enough of myself. 

and

and 

and

At times I wonder about myself.  Why is it that I still can't feel good about myself.

Why do I have so much on my mind?  Why do I feel so insecure? Why do I

feel like I have to protect myself and can't be as open as I want?

Why am I not the person I want to be?

I wonder what people say about me?  I wonder

I wonder

I wonder

I wonder

"Oh!  Hi!"

How long have you been standing there?

You have been waiting

to talk

to connect

and there was so much between my heart

and you

and I did not

see