Primitive religion is not believed, it is danced!

Arthur Darby Nock

Earth's crammed with heaven,
And every common bush afire with God;
And only he who sees takes off his shoes;
The rest sit round it and pluck blackberries.

Elizabeth Browning

Friday, April 12, 2013

The Spiritual Life

The spiritual life is about becoming more
at home 
in your own skin
                                             Parker J Palmer
Anything that removes what grows between our hearts 
and the day
is spiritual
                                         Mark Nepo 


Good grief
there is so much to do!

I have to work on my sermon, and do the bulletin, and call the community 
center, and look at the budget, and prepare the worship for
Presbytery, and work up a little meditation time for Presbytery, and check in with
that shut-in couple, and call "the State", and do the implementation plan
and feed the cats and clean the pasture, and deal with that upset
community member and, oops,we never did get that strategic plan done,
and that medical record system is still screwed up and

And I am wondering about how my sister is doing, darn, I forgot to call
and then there is that issue when I got upset with my staff,
downright cranky I was!  I wonder if any of my staff even like me?  I remember when 
I really goofed up with a staff so many years ago.  And what about the church people.
I way too busy and I am sure I never give them quite enough time
but even more, perhaps, not quite enough of myself. 
At times I wonder about myself.  Why is it that I still can't feel good about myself.
Why do I have so much on my mind?  Why do I feel so insecure? Why do I
feel like I have to protect myself and can't be as open as I want?
Why am I not the person I want to be?
I wonder what people say about me?  I wonder
I wonder
I wonder
I wonder
"Oh!  Hi!"
How long have you been standing there?
You have been waiting
to talk
to connect
and there was so much between my heart
and you
and I did not

1 comment:

  1. So....
    my apologies, to my sisters, my kids, my wife, my staff, my friends... to all those whom I have put at arms length because there was too much between my heart.... and them