I am a wanderer. I would say that I am a seeker, but sometimes I have no idea what I might be seeking, so I will stick with wanderer. This blog is more a public journal than anything. I don't claim to have life figured out. I simply stumble from mystery to mystery, and share my reflections along the way. Sometimes I feel burdened, and trudge. Sometimes? Well sometimes grace breaks through, and its time to dance.
Tuesday, April 30, 2013
Relationships
Relationships
can't live with them
can't live without them
as an introvert I find relationships a challenge
I can be friendly
and articulate about things that matter to me
I can smile
and even attend
and honestly
if we are being honest
I care a lot about people
I will do almost anything for someone I care about
I can't get very invested
even over invested
in another
wanting all the best for them
often behind the scenes I am supporting
protecting
helping
but often I am a stealth friend
because when it comes to
just being with another person?
that is scary
tiring
confusing
and I feel more like
the 13 year old Stephen
a little awkward
ears sticking out
buzz cut
ugly glasses
and lets not forget that back brace
I am an introvert
pure and simple
so I care
and people don't really know
I think about others
but I often don't let them know
I work for others
and
well
they don't know
and then
ah yes, this is the fun part
I find myself frustrated
by the isolation which I myself have created
so at work
at church
even at home
certainly in the community
I become a human doing
using what I accomplish as the measure of my existence
and
I long for what I seem to struggle most to build
friendship
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