Why Does God Love Me?

Why Does God Love Me?

This is the thing, the core thing that I have the most trouble with in my relationship with the Sacred

Here is what I have come to believe…

God does not love me because I am worthy, because I am lovable

Nor does God love me because I am unlovable, unworthy.

When it comes to love God doesn't seem to work in the realm of

"deserving"

at all

God loves because God is love

that is what God does

that is who God IS

Oh, I know, there are consequences to actions

and we can deny love

I get all that

But, we have no grounds for believing God doesn't LOVE us

because we are unworthy

Jesus makes that very clear

So why is it so hard to grab hold of God’s love?

Beatrice Bruteau makes this startling comment....

"sometimes we want to be loveable more than we want to be loved"

Wow!  That is SO me!

I want to be loveable

I want to deserve love, earn love

I want the other person to "have to" love me

I think this gives me power, and control of a sort

if I am wonderful

amazing

beautiful

whatever

then I have the power to make the other person love me

and this gives me, so I think, a security of love

of course they must continue to love me!

how could they not?

I have been this...

done that....

but to just accept love

and to accept that this love

coming to me may just be

may just emerge out of the heart of the  other person

who may be able to love me

because they have accepted love

that comes out of the heart of God...

Honestly, that is difficult

I have trouble going there

It has to be about me

How can there be a love that is

not earned

not deserved?

And yet

that is how God works

I am not there yet

I am not yet ready to let go of my need to be deserving

and just accept

love

when it comes

how about you?