heart break

“Welcome the small cracking of your hard-clodded shell,

Embrace the warm sting of tears,

Kiss the shadow which frightens you awake as you turn the corners of your day,

Love the whole of everything,

Smooth sunshine skies and

Jagged edges

Which all seek us out in

Constant whisper and touch

To say, 'hello, Beautiful. You’re alive”

                                         Jacob Nordby

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This morning I watched a video

It was not new

I had seen it before

but today as I watched it tear sprung to my eyes

uninvited

and the pounding of my heart

was the sound of my shell cracking

and perhaps my heart breaking

I don’t want this

I don’t want to feel this pain

I don’t want to see the big eyes of migrant children

filled with fear and pain

I don’t want to see the hopeless and battered faces

of the homeless.

I don’t want to see untruth and corruption sit in high places

I don’t want to watch as the earth does because of human greed

I don’t want to watch while the hoarders and abusers win

I would like to stay safe

And comfortable

Protected by ignorance, perhaps

Or by privilege

I would to seal myself off

So I don’t have to see, don’t have to feel

but sometimes the shell breaks

and I must embrace the warm sting of tears,

and kiss the shadows

and feel the pain

just as

once upon a time

the skies cracked open

and a little drop of heaven came to earth

love came to earth

and lived among us

and saw all

felt all

welcomed all

embraced all

forgave all

healed all

loved all

if we would heal the world

if we would change the world

our hearts must break