WINNOWING
It is the Lord's kindness that he will take the scum off
us in the fire. Who knows how needful winnowing is to us and what dross we have
before we enter the kingdom of God? So narrow is the entry to heaven that our
knots, lumps of pride, self-love, idol-love, and world-love must be hammered
off us, that we may stoop low and creep through into that narrow entry.
Samuel Rutherford
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“Remember who you are” my mother would say
everytime
everytime
I would leave the house for a night out in our little
country town
as if anyone would let me forget!
and yet I do forget
sometimes it feels as if I have a massive case of amnesia
I have forgotten who I am
where I cam from
what I was created to be
I have been taught you see, by this world
who I am
so that my image of myself has
become blurred
my soul is more like Velcro than Teflon
burdened with the flotsam of life
with failures and losses
with pride and greed
and need
until I am weighed down, unable to move
so it is with so many of us
each day I listen to people who have learned
they are bad
stupid
a waste of space
selfish
weak
unworthy
unworthy
unworthy
spirituality I have decided is as much a matter of
unlearning as learning
of unlearning all those things a fallen world has taught
us
it is a matter of going inside
and finding God
for it is that moment when we find God inside ourselves
that we find ourselves inside God
and it is then that we unlearn that which be unlearned
and learn again what it means to be a child of God
when Sacred Advents in our soul
we are like the grain on the threshing floor
the wind of the Spirit tosses us as a winnowing fork
tosses gain
and the chaff
all that binds us
floats away
blown by the wind of the Spirit
consumed by the fire of the Spirit
and that precious kernel that is our Sacred self
is freed
ready to be planted
and birthed again
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