I am a wanderer. I would say that I am a seeker, but sometimes I have no idea what I might be seeking, so I will stick with wanderer. This blog is more a public journal than anything. I don't claim to have life figured out. I simply stumble from mystery to mystery, and share my reflections along the way. Sometimes I feel burdened, and trudge. Sometimes? Well sometimes grace breaks through, and its time to dance.
Primitive religion is not believed, it is danced!
Arthur Darby Nock
Earth's crammed with heaven, And every common bush afire with God; And only he who sees takes off his shoes; The rest sit round it and pluck blackberries.
Wednesday, August 8, 2012
Some of you may have been noticing
if you haven't then I know you haven't really been reading this blog
that I have been
hmmm, how does one put this?
Well, lets just say it hasn't been the best of times!
It is not that there aren't good things going on.
I have a wonderful granddaughter who has arrived on the scene with her goofy smile
I have an amazing and wonderful group of co-workers to spend my days with
I have been blessed in many ways
lets face it, life can be a bit, chaotic
things happen that make us feel anxious, hurt, sad
There are a lot of challenges out there right now
The climate of American politics right now scares me, saddens me, and offends me
There are changes and threats related to my business that are stretching me, a lot
and I wake up in the middle of the night worrying, wondering, going through the options
second guessing myself
I have gotten stretched thin enough
that it is hard for me to attend to others the way I want (and that is at the center of both my roles)
Often when we get in such places it is easy to look at the chaos, and see it as only bad
to get into that place where we struggle with "why"!
Why can't the state leave things well enough alone
Why can't politicians tell the truth?
Why can't people see the value of mental health care for vulnerable people (enough to help fund it)
We get into that place where all we can see is the what is wrong, and painful
and we kind of want to quit
But I ran across this quote from Scott Peck. Not my favorite guy, but he does say some good things
“The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to
occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled.
For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we
are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different
ways or truer answers.”
Shortly after that, while re-reading Richard Rohr's "Falling Upward" I ran into a chapter where he talks about what he calls 'necessary suffering". He suggests, as does Peck, that moments of discomfort push us forward. Make us think, move, change, grow. Gets us our of our ruts.
I still think the ruts suck
And I know that in climbing out, we are in danger of climbing out on the "wrong side"
I can buy that.
Lets keep moving God, one step, one choice at a time