Primitive religion is not believed, it is danced!

Arthur Darby Nock

Earth's crammed with heaven,
And every common bush afire with God;
And only he who sees takes off his shoes;
The rest sit round it and pluck blackberries.

Elizabeth Browning

Monday, May 29, 2017

Inner Chaos

“The highly sensitive [introverted] tend to be philosophical or spiritual in their orientation, rather than materialistic or hedonistic. They dislike small talk. They often describe themselves as creative or intuitive. They dream vividly, and can often recall their dreams the next day. They love music, nature, art, physical beauty. They feel exceptionally strong emotions--sometimes acute bouts of joy, but also sorrow, melancholy, and fear. Highly sensitive people also process information about their environments--both physical and emotional--unusually deeply. They tend to notice subtleties that others miss--another person's shift in mood, say, or a lightbulb burning a touch too brightly.”
― Susan Cain, Quiet: The Power of Introverts in a World That Can't Stop Talking

Outwardly I go through my day

I go from task to task and get things done
Usually a lot of things done

But inside it is a different story

While my outer life is a documentary on the mating rituals of the fruit fly
My inner life is reality TV
Or perhaps a soap opera

Lots of drama here!

Because my mind is busy
My emotions too
And I notice…

Every nuance. 
I notice it, and parse it, and come up with something
(in my cases as an anxious person) something to worry about,
or a need to impress
or a reason to withdraw, hurt and alone

its an interesting world,
my inner life

a nice place to visit
but I wouldn’t want to live there…
but wait!

I do.

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