Wow! That is SO me!
I want to be loveable
I think this gives me power, and control of a sort
if I am wonderful
then I have the power to make the other person love me
of course they must continue to love me
how could they not?
I have been this...
but to just accept love
and to accept that this love
coming to me may just be
may just emerge out of the heart of the other person
who may be able to love me
because they have accepted love
that comes out of the heart of God...
Honestly, that is difficult
I have trouble going there
I am not yet ready to let go of my need to be deserving
and just accept
when it comes