somethings have to be believed

“Some things have to be believed to be seen.”

― Madeleine L'Engle

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I have to admit

If I am very honest with myself

That sometimes I am a little short on hope

I wandered through some evaluations tonight on line

of classes taught

most were good

but one person said I was horrible

boring, ineffective the worst

I feel that way sometimes

It is my greatest fear

And the older I get the worse it gets

You would think it would be different

That after all these years I would feel secure in confident

In years of success

But no

And then there is the news

There is always the news

Government shut downs

Lies and more lies from those who would lead us

Wild weather

Cruel people

And then there is just life

Aging body

And mind that no longer really works the way it did

Tiredness

Pain

I see no reason for hope

I can see no way

We will pull into being the Kingdom of God

No way to heal the earth

No way to pull together a radically divided people

No way

No way

No way

But I believe

And so I see the goodness in the hearts of people

I see the beauty and resilience of the earth

I see that I might still be of some good to someone

I see that perhaps I will learn to be a good dad

And a doting grandfather

I see God’s love

I see the Kingdom coming

Some things have to be believed to be seen