Mara World

I am taking a day off!

Yes, really

Not going into the office

Not answering phone calls (OK, I probably will)

Not checking email (everyone knows that is a laugh)

But I am taking the day off

Time to be with Mara

and of course Mara's mom

my amazing daughter Erin!

And it is terrifying

I means what does one do with a 3 month old child?

Sure she is cute

and her mom insists that those noises she makes 

are really her "talking"

Some things get lost in the translation

But it is terrifying because I have built

my whole life around doing

accomplishing

 

and now

for this day

I simply need to be

 

To rejoice in the grunts (and what that means - good thing her mom is here for diaper duty)

To "hear" the words in those amazing noises

 

To rejoice when those eyes meet mine

and that smile emerges...

 to feel God in that tiny body

that trustingly lies in my hands

 

To know that in this moment

I am closer to God than I ever get

 

 

 

When I am with Mara

I am a fool

but I am God's fool