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Monday, February 10, 2014

Ah, Regrets!

One regret that I am determined not to have
when I am lying upon my
death bed

is that we did not kiss
enough
                                Hafiz
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what if
they held a funeral at the end of my life
and nobody came?

have you ever thought
about what you leave behind
the thoughts
the feelings
the legacy?

they say this kind of thinking comes when
you move closer to that thing we call death

that existential
kind of crap that wanders into one’s head
when waking at 2AM

or when sitting in the dark
on a Monday morning

what have I accomplished, really?
what do people think about me, really?
does anyone really care?
am I admired, or vilified

we all know we are “mixed bags”
all of us
have things that are good, and things that aren’t
all of us have moments we are proud of
and moments that make us cringe

all of us I suspect have people who think we are pretty wonderful
and people who dislike us
intensely
and can only see that moment when we did something
that made god sigh

or see that side of us, we would rather not be seen

I have friends and admirers
I have enemies (you know who you are)
I have people who delight in thinking the worst of me
and insist on thinking ignoring the best in me

so be it
all I can do
all
I
can
do

is from this moment on
try to be one
who goes through life

transparent
so that the sacred in me
which lurks there
somewhere
in the depth of my soul

can shine
a little
and I can care
a little
and be generous
a little

then when at the end of my life
they hold the almost obligatory
funeral
and dinner/dance

someone will show up
and smile
at the thought of what the sacred
has done
in me
with me
through me

3 comments:

  1. Good words Stephen. About this we all wonder.

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  2. Laura Robinson MorrisFebruary 10, 2014 at 8:13 AM

    Hmmm...not concerned with any smiles after I'm gone, but treasure the ones I am granted here and now. And I'm wondering if it's possible to trade that obligatory "dinner/dance" here for a "reception with Celestial music for dancing" there! Oh, here's a smile for you now...just so you know! Peace of Christ! <3 <3 <3

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  3. Thoughts I too have wondered.

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