delicious ambiguity

“I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next.

Delicious Ambiguity.”

 Gilda Radner

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I don’t know what is going to happen next

I can’t control what will happen next

Oh, I am not powerless

I can work toward the things I value

I can make choices (and hope they are the right ones)

But seriously

My entire life has been one detour after another

I started out headed one place (being a doctor)

Change my course 4 times before I got out of college

Ended up in a career, that I thought would be “the” career

It wasn’t

Started again

And again

And again

And I am thankful

Not for the pain I experienced along the way

Or the moments of sheer terror

Or the uncertainty

But for the fact that for every ending there was a beginning

And for the fact that when some doors closed

Others opened

I am thankful

For lessons learned

Skills gained

For the fact that I could leave

Difficult things, and mistakes, behind me

That I could carry things learned

And new growth

With me

I did not do some of the things I dreamed of doing

But I did things I never dreamed of

And I have learned one primary thing

Just keep walking

Left foot, right foot, left foot, breathe!

Just keep moving

Searching

Trying

Learning

And life will unfold

It may not unfold the way you think it should

It may not be what you think it should be

But it will be

And there are surprises along the way

And amazing gifts

So take the moment

Make the best of it

Accept that you may not, probably will not understand

Live with the uncertainty

But live