When God First Thought of You

“Stop acting so small. You are the universe in ecstatic motion.”

― Rumi

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Have you ever wondered

what the Sacred One imagined

when He thought of you?

Have you ever wonder what

She had in mind

when you were birthed into this universe?

I am not talking about how tall you are

or what shape

I am not interested in whether you have

Uncle Dave’s nose

or Aunt Christine’s eyes

I know that I am “fearfully and wonderfully made”

with my father’s face

the body of my mother’s brothers (mostly)

I know that I am missing a permanent tooth

Just like my mom (and my sisters)

I know I walk with that little bend in the shoulders

just like my dad and Uncle Dave

and that my love of reading comes from my mother

not my father
(I read more books in a month than my dad read his whole life – if you don’t count medical journals)

but what did the Sacred One have in mind

why am I here?

why here and why now?

why this combination of skills

and weaknesses?

what tasks were on my Sacred “to-do” list

what was I supposed to do?

Whose life was I supposed to touch?

In short why am I here?

and am I, since I have blown so many chances

and opportunities, anywhere close to what

was originally intended?

I suspect I am not

as a person with some talent

but great energy, passion, and

yes

impulsivity

I suspect I have frustrated many a plan

You’ve heard of plan B?

Try plan Z

maybe even plan Z3

I see friends from college

who were no brighter, no more gifted

no more lovers of the sacred than I

as the Presidents of great seminaries

as Ambassadors

and I wonder

and then I remember

there is only one plan

to be present

to love the person

right in front of you

to meet the need

right in front of you

then I remember

that is my calling

that is our  calling

that is

enough

in each moment

each encounter

each conversation

the universe

the Sacred One

reaches out to a hurting world

through me

(and you)