I am a wanderer. I would say that I am a seeker, but sometimes I have no idea what I might be seeking, so I will stick with wanderer. This blog is more a public journal than anything. I don't claim to have life figured out. I simply stumble from mystery to mystery, and share my reflections along the way. Sometimes I feel burdened, and trudge. Sometimes? Well sometimes grace breaks through, and its time to dance.
Friday, September 25, 2015
That Best Shitty Feeling
Receiving grace is basically the best shitty feeling in the
world. I don’t want to need it.
Preferably I could just do it all and be it all and never
mess up. That may be what I prefer, but
it is never what I need. I need to be
broken apart and put back into a different shape by that merging of human and
divine….
Nadia
Bolz-Weber, Accidental Saints, p. 180
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I am a minister
I am a counselor
I am a Kliewer (by God)
and it has been ordained
and proclaimed
that I shall be strong
and self reliant
and I shall not
I SHALL NOT
need help
I shall be the helper
I shall be the one with answers
I shall…..
Oh the hell with it
who am I fooling?
not even myself
there are so many times
that I need
love
support
help
there are so many times that I need grace
so many times I need to be taken apart
re-created
born again
oddly enough it does not take weakness
to let God
remake you
it is the most difficult thing in the world
it hurts
and it is
the greatest gift
ever
the best shitty feeling in the world
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