A momentary sense of meaninglessness

Simone Weil said, "It is grace that forms a void inside of us and it is also grace that fills that void." Grace leads us to the state of emptiness, to that momentary sense of meaninglessness in which we ask, "What is it all for? What does it all mean?" Without grace we will not enter into such a necessary void, and without grace the void will not be filled. All we can do is try to keep our hands cupped and open. And it is even grace to do that. But we must want grace and know we need it.

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there are those days

are there not

marked by “a momentary sense of meaninglessness”

when one opens one’s eyes

or perchance

refuses to open one’s eyes

hoping it will all go away

there are those days

when we feel empty

as if we are living in a void

have a void within us

worse

are a void,

a cipher,

without substance of meaning

a empty vessel

cracked at that

seemingly incapable

of holding anything of earthly value

much less Sacred

but the moment we reach that place

often before (although we did not notice it)

grace happens

we are touched with Sacred love

and the fissures in our soul

are touched

and healing begins

(not that we are made perfectly whole, far be it

 but we can begin to hold grace and love)

and then slowly our cup is filled

as we reach hands open and cupped

for the water

for that living water

which springs up

eternally

filling, quenching, refreshing

our dry, thirsty, maws

eagerly seeking

partaking

and then,

no longer desperate

no longer empty

we know why we are here

to be cracked vessels

holding as best we can

the precious Sacred water

and offering it up

to other 

thirsty souls

grace