Hitting the Wall

We, like Jesus
himself, have to let go of who we think we are, and who we think we need to be.
“Dying at 30? I am just getting started!” he must have thought. We have to let
go of the passing names by which we have tried to name ourselves and become the
“naked self before the naked God.” That will always feel like dying, because we
are so attached to our passing names and identities. Your bare, undecorated self
is already and forever the beloved child of God. When you can rest there, you
will begin to share in the universal Christ consciousness, the very “mind of
Christ” (1 Corinthians 2:16 [2]).




Richard Rohr
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Oh Lord
Someone
who shall go
unnamed
hit the wall last
night

wham
slam


its been a summer
when it all piled up



visitors (lovely daughters
whom I love)


events (Chief Joseph Days)
work (the triennial state site visit)
crises (two suicidal people in two days)
church (who would have known Acts would be such a challenge in terms of preaching?)


 in short
too much
not enough me
and still more
requests coming in


more things
that I must do


well of course it
must be me Lord!
 

who else?




sometimes
we have to let go
of who we think we are, and who we think we need to be
dying at 62? 


Ok I am not just
getting started!

but perhaps Lord

there are lessons
to be learned yet 




about sitting on
the porch


sipping a cup of
coffee


letting go


last night I hit the wall


splat 




and Lord I know


that the answer is
not to work harder


(that is the
letting go part)


but to sit


and abide


and be


and find others to
help



ah yes


I need to say it
again


If only for myself


Abide


And 


Be
 

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Those that wait in the Lord shall renew their strength